I Give

My walk home in the rain tonight

I did have a really melodramatic post ready to go, but I donno...
Right now I think I'd like to state how lucky I feel.
Bad things keep happening to me. I am continually screwing myself over and putting myself down.
Dispite all of this, I can't stay ruined. Why?
I was overwhelmed by the sheer amount of people who came to me, and got me to just talk when I didn't want to. I can't believe how much I take my friends for granted. I don't know why but I've got some amazing people on my side. They support me no matter what. I was going through some major depression there snowballing, and when I felt I was hitting the brunt of it, within a span of only a couple hours all of these people came to me to help me when I was lost.

I think I'm done dating.
I have my reasons, tested the waters, and I'm finished with it.
I think instead I'd like to focus on and cherish my friends and family.

Although I am still blue, and shall be for a while, I can find a reason to smile when I think of them.
Thank you.