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My walk home in the rain tonight

I did have a really melodramatic post ready to go, but I donno...
Right now I think I'd like to state how lucky I feel.
Bad things keep happening to me. I am continually screwing myself over and putting myself down.
Dispite all of this, I can't stay ruined. Why?
I was overwhelmed by the sheer amount of people who came to me, and got me to just talk when I didn't want to. I can't believe how much I take my friends for granted. I don't know why but I've got some amazing people on my side. They support me no matter what. I was going through some major depression there snowballing, and when I felt I was hitting the brunt of it, within a span of only a couple hours all of these people came to me to help me when I was lost.

I think I'm done dating.
I have my reasons, tested the waters, and I'm finished with it.
I think instead I'd like to focus on and cherish my friends and family.

Although I am still blue, and shall be for a while, I can find a reason to smile when I think of them.
Thank you.

Late Night

So I had a few posts I was going through but I posted none of them because they were lame.

I will update about myself.
I am a moody sunovabeach! My moods have been crashing down to uncontrollably crying, flaring up to maximum rage, soaring to really really stupidly happy, down to completely useless, and raising up to feeling really ambitious. What is wrong with me?

Has somebody slipped some foreign hormones into my breakfast cereal?

Today I did something really classy were I was out eating with my friends and they were talking about their dislike for a class that I rather enjoyed. I didn't really care that they didn't like it but for some reason I just got fuming angry! Like my heart starting racing and my face got all flushed and I was scowling , the whole deal. Then after like ten minutes of arguing with my friends they asked why my point was, like why was I getting so upset? And I had no idea. I just got completely pissed and my friends for no reason at all!

So along with being really moody I think I am also going crazy... or losing brain cells. I used to be able talk to people, now a lot of the time I turn out being really awkward and nobody understands what I'm trying to say. Like somebody will say something to me, and I'll have a whole conversation in my head, and only say the last little bit. Of course once they say "Huh?" my mind will freeze and I can't even retrace my thoughts to tell them what I was trying to say.

So those are a couple new interesting things I've noticed about myself. They are also two new things I would like to get rid of. `3'

In other news my homework is ever piling and I'm having a hard time managing it all. The good news is that I'm starting my favorite cycle of never sleeping. I gained it last year and now it's back. I just don't need sleep. Ever. :)

My work is looking cool though. Enjoy looking.